Why?

I wonder why...


Sometimes I feel people are much nicer to me than I deserve and yet at other times feel the whole world is conspiring against me.

Sometimes life is so rosy that it feels like it cannot get better and sometimes it feels like everything that can go wrong has...

I get mad at the people I love, hurt them, and end up feeling miserable.

Though I know that screaming out my frustration does not help in anyway, I don't stop myself.

I give some people everything I can and still don't see them happy but sometimes I don't do a thing and still see them attribute their happiness to me.

I fight with myself to decide between what is right and what is not.

Decisions usually involve my happiness on one side and another person's, who is close to my heart, on the other.

I miss some people, to whom I don't mean a thing.

I take the people who care, for granted.

Sometimes everything that seems so right, so good, actually turns out to be as bad for me as it can get.

I do not learn from my mistakes.

Sometimes I laugh till I cry and at other times cry till I forget how to laugh.

I want to help, right my wrongs but never know how to and give up only to start the cycle again.

I decide to focus on one thing and try to concentrate only on it but a thousand random thoughts come flooding into my head.

I more often than not send out wrong signals to people. The people my signals were never aimed at end up catching them.

.... I wonder why my world is full of such questions -- I ask myself, realise I cannot answer them, decide not to think about them, but always end up pondering over them :)